Breaking The Habit

Memories concern
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safer in my room
Unless I try to start again


I don't want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Cultured my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again


I dont want to be the one
Who battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
Cuz I'm the one that falls
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends


I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I?m breaking the habit tonight

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                Don't Stay

Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I?m in disbelief I didn?t know
Somehow I need you to go

Don?t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don?t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don?t stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I?m in disbelief I didn?t know
Somehow I need to be alone

Don?t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don?t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don?t stay

I don?t need you anymore, I don?t want to be ignored
I don?t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don?t need you anymore, I don?t want to be ignored
I don?t need one more day of you wasting me away
With no apologies

Don?t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don?t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don?t stay

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                        Easier To Run

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something NUMB
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
It's easier to go
If I could change I would take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave

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                      Faint

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can?t help the fact that everybody can see
these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here cause you want what I've got


(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense
I say what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you?re all that I've got


(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

(Now)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)
(Hear me out now)
(You're gonna listen to me, like it or not)
(Right now)

(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)


(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)


(I can't feel the way I did before)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)
(Time won't heal this damage anymore)
(Don't turn your back on me)
(I won't be ignored)

I can't feel
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored

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                     Figure.09

Nothing ever stops all these thoughts and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happening
It's like nothing I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
Cuz from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize instead of setting it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)


(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

Hearing your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
I see you n? every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committing myself to em n? everyday
I regret saying those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)


(And now)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)
(Never goes away)

(Get away from me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it in without letting you
(Know)
I let you go so get away from
(Me)
Give me my space back you gotta just
(Go)
Everything comes down the memories of
(You)
I kept it in without letting you
(Know)
I let you go

(And then)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be right here)
(You've become a part of me)
(You'll always be my fear)
(I can't separate)
(Myself from what I've done)
(Giving up a part of me)
(I've let myself become you)

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                     Foreword

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling
I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in

Without a sense of confidence,and I'm convinced
That there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting
Reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
It's haunting how I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in

Without a sense of confidence,and I'm conviced
That there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real

Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming
Confusing what is real
Its lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling
Confusing what is real

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                  From The Inside

I don?t know who to trust your surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
(Trying not to break but I?m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)


Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won?t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Happy thoughts forcing their way out of me
(Trying not to break but I?m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)


Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won?t trust myself with you

I won?t waste myself on you
You
You
Waste myself on you
You
You

I?ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won?t trust myself with you

Everything from the inside and just throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won?t trust myself with you
You
You
  

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                    Hit The Floor

There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you and I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I?ve held on what I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you said about me when I?m not around
You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down
But I?ve had too many standoffs with you it?s about as much as I can stand
So I?m waiting until the upper hand is mine


(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch you drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed a shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)

So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I?m not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel you crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and I?m counting down the time
Cause I?ve had so many standoffs with you it?s about as much as I can stand
So I?m waiting until the upper hand is mine


(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch you drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed a shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then he?s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then he?s all gone)
(Now it?s all gone)

I know I?ll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall


(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not watch you drop
(Making your heart stop)
Just before you hit the floor
(One minute you're on top)
Next you're not missed a shot
(Making you're heart stop)
You think you've won
(And then its all gone)
(And then he?s all gone)
(And then its all gone)
(And then he?s all gone)
(Now it?s all gone)

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                     Lying For You

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can?t forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can?t pretend this is the way it?ll stay I?m just
(Lying to bend the truth)
I can?t pretend I?m who you want me to be, so I?m


(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I?d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you is me)

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk for who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin? in
And now you think this person really is me and I?m
(Trying to bend the truth)
Cuz the more I push the more I?m pulling away cuz I?m


(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I?d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)

This isn?t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn?t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn?t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This
This isn?t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
Like This


(You)
No turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I?d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is me)

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                    Nobody's Listening

Yo, peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is how could you ignore it
And drop right back in the cut over basement tracks
Rap stack got you back in the sub black
Rewind that we just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylist division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiving
But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose that it gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt it goes


(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody?s listening)
(Called to you so clearly but you don?t want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody?s listening)

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Head full of anger, held in my chest
And everything left?s a waste of time
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else?s more
I?m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it?s better I can?t keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you


(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody?s listening)
(Called to you so clearly but you don?t want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody?s listening)

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
Head full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat n tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear

Heart full of pain, head full of stress
Head full of anger, held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat n tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear

Heart full of pain


(Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody?s listening)
(Called to you so clearly but you don?t want to hear me)
Told you everything loud and clear
(But nobody?s listening)

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
(Nobody?s listening)
Head full of anger, held in my chest
(Nobody?s listening)
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat n tears
(Nobody?s listening)
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
(Nobody?s listening)

Scratching Conclusion (Cu-coming at you from every side)

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                          Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)


I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take


I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you


I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you


I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

I've become so numb I cant feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

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                 Somewhere I Belong

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I?m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I?ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own


I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I?ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it?s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I?m close to something real
I wanna find something I?ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I?ve got nothing to say
I can?t believe I didn?t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it?s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
?Cause I can?t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own



I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today



I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I?m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I?m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

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                        In The End

(It starts with)
One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It?s so unreal
Didn?t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn?t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried
so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don?t know why
It doesn?t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I?m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren?t the way they were before
You wouldn?t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There?s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn?t even matter

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                   A Place For My Head

I watch how the
Moon sits in the sky / in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
The sun doesn't give / light to the moon assuming
The moon?s going to owe it one
It makes me think of how you act to me / You do
Favors and then rapidly / You just
Turn around and start asking me / about
Things you want back from me
I?m sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While I find a place to rest
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don?t understand
(You?ll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
Maybe someday I?ll be just like you / and
Step on people like you do and / Run
Away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
Used to be generous / but you should?ve known / That you?d
Wear out your welcome / now you see
How quiet it is / all alone / I?m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest / I?m so
Sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
Sick of you acting like I owe you this
Find another place / to feed your greed -
While / I find a place to rest
You try to take the best of me
Go away

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                       By Myself

Myself
Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me
Do I follow my instincts blindly
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening
Do I sit here and try to stand it
Or do I try to catch them red-handed
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again

By myself (myself)
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself)
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I cant rely on myself
I cant look around
(Its too much to take in)
I cant hold on
(When im stretched so thin)
I cant slow down
(Watching everything spin)
I cant look past
(Its starting over again)

If I turn my back I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer

By myself (myself)
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I can't rely on myself (myself)
I ask why
But in my mind I find
I cant rely on myself
I cant look around
(Its too much to take in)
I cant hold on
(When im stretched so thin)
I cant slow down
(Watching everything spin)
I cant look past
(Its starting over again)

Dont you(being said repeaditly in the backround)
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No mater what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside
Dont you (know)
I cant tell you how to make it (go)
No matter what I do, how hard I (try)
I cant seem to convince myself (why)
Im stuck on the outside

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                         Crawling

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control i fear is never ending
controlling/i can't seem


to find myself again
my walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence and i'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
i've felt this way before
so insecure



discomfort,endlessly has pulled itself upon me
distracting/reacting
against my will i stand beside my own reflection
it's haunting how i can't seem...

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                   Cure For The Itch

I'd like to introduce (echo fade)
In your (echo)
In your (being scratched)
In your sound institute of invention
and revival of audio weapon systems.
Let's try (being scratched)
Let's try something else.
Folks we have a very special guest for you tonight (echo fade)
BREAK IT DOWN! Cut it up! Using the waves of sound.
A true master paralyzes his opponent leaving him
vulnerable to attack...
Mr. Hahn..

(Let's hear it for the great Mr. Hahn)
And now for a lesson in r-r-rhythm m-m-m-management...
L-l-l-let's begin
All right now, wasn't that fun?
Let's try something else...

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                         Forgotten

From the top to the bottom
Bottom to top I stop
At the core I?ve forgotten
In the middle of my thoughts
Taken far from my safety
The picture is there
The memory won?t escape me
But why should I care


There?s a place so dark you can?t see the end
Skies cock back and shock that which can?t defend
The rain then sends dripping / acidic question
Forcefully, the power of suggestion
Then with the eyes shut / looking thought the rust and rot
And dust / a small spot of light floods the floor
And pours over the rusted world of pretend
The eyes ease open and its dark again



In the memory you?ll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up

Moving all around / screaming of the ups and downs
Pollution manifested in perpetual sound
The wheels go round and the sunset creeps behind
Street lamps, chain-link and concrete
A little piece of paper with a picture drawn floats
On down the street till the wind is gone
The memory now is like the picture was then
When the paper?s crumpled up it can?t be perfect again



In the memory you?ll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up

Now you got me caught in the act
You bring the thought back
I?m telling you that
I see it right through you


In the memory you?ll find me
Eyes burning up
The darkness holding me tightly
Until the sun rises up

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                    High Voltage

Just do something to tell you who I am, ya know?

It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out

I've been taking into crates ever since I was livin in space
Before the ratrace, before monkeys had human traits
Mastered numerology and bigbang theology
Performed lobotomies with telekinetic psychology
Invented the mic so I could start blessin it
And chincheckin kids to make my point like an impressionist
Many men have tried to shake us
But I twist mic cords to double helixes and show them what I'm made of
I buckle knees like leg braces
Cast the spell of instrumental-ness and all of the emcees that hate us
So try on, leave you without a shoulder to cry on
From now to infinity let icons be bygones
I fire bomb ghostly notes haunt this
I've tried threats but moved on to a promise
I stomp shit with or without an accomplis
(Mixed media)
The stamp of approval is on this

It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out

Akira, put a kink in the backbones of clones with microphones
Never satisfy my rhyme jones
Sprayin bright day over what you might say
Blood type krylon
Technicolor type A
On highways with road rage I'm patient to win
The cage and the tin to bounce all around
In surround sound devouring the scene
Subliminal gangrene paintings
Overall the same things sing songs karaoke copy madness
Break bones verbally with sticks and stone tactics
Fourth dimension, combat convention
Write rhymes at ease while the tracks stand at attention (Attention)
Meant to put you away with the pencil
Pistol, official, 16 line rhyme missile
While you risk it all, I pick out of your flaws
Spin, blah blah blah blah
You can say you saw

It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out

It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out
It's high voltage you cant shake the shock
Because nobody wants it to stop, check it out

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                       My Decmber

this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear

this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone

and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said
to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you

and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to

this is my december
these are my snow covered dreams
this is me pretending
this is all i need

and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said
to make you feel like that
and i
just wish that i didnt feel
like there was something i missed
and i
take back all the things i said to you

and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to

this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear

and i give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to

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                    One Step Closer

 cannot take this anymore
I'm saying everything I've said before
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you'll say
But you'll find that out anyway
Just like before...
Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I find the answers aren't so clear
Wish I could find a way to disappear
All these thoughts they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Nothing seems to go away
Over and over again
shut up when I'm talking to you

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                        Papercut

Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here?s not right today?
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia?s all I got left
I don?t know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed / but
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It?s like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it?s time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me / right beneath my skin
It?s like I?m / paranoid lookin? over my back
It?s like a / whirlwind inside of my head
It?s like I / can?t stop what I?m hearing within
It?s like the face inside is right beneath my skin
I know I?ve got a face in me
points out all the mistakes to me
You?ve got a face on the inside too and
Your paranoia?s probably worse
I don?t know what set me off first but I know what I can?t stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can?t add up to what you can but
Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when they close their eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)
So you know that when it?s time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too / right inside your skin
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

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                     Points Of Authority

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

You love the way i look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away if i give in
My life
My pride is broken


You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what you learn)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what you learn)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what you learn)
You want to share what you have been through
(You live what you learn)

You love the things i say i'll do
The way i'll hurt myself again just get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life
My pride is broken

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                     Pushing Me Away

I've lied to you
The same way that I always do
This is the last smile
That I'll fake for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away

I've tried like you
To do everything you wanted too
This is the last time
I'll take the blame for the sake of being with you

(Everything falls apart
Even the people who never frown
Eventually break down)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(Everything has to end
You'll soon find we're out of time left
To watch it all unwind)
The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice of hiding in a lie
(We're all out of time
This is how we find how it all unwinds)
The sacrifice is never knowing
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Why I never walked away
Why I played myself this way
Now I see your testing me pushes me away
Pushes me away

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                      Runaway

Graffiti decorations
Under a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust
The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

i'm gonna run away and never say goodbye
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
i'm gonna run away and never wonder why
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
i'm gonna run away and open my mind
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

i wanna run away
and open up my mind
i wanna run away
and open up my mind
i wanna run away
and open up my mind
i wanna run away
and open up my mind

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                        With You

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static / and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I?m pretending to be where I?m not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I?m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react
Even though you?re so close to me
You?re still so distant / And I can?t bring you back
It?s true / the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you?re not with me
I?m with you
You / Now I see/ keeping everything inside
You / Now I see / Even when I close my eyes
I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor / the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn?t real
Now I'm trapped in this memory
And I?m left in the wake of the mistake / slow to react
Even though you?re close to me
You?re still so distant / And I can?t bring you back
no
No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
With you

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                       It's Going  Down

I knew I was being threatened
Do you think it was worth holding out?
I mean I've heard some pretty ugly things about those guys
Ugly stories


Watch them flee...watch them flee
Rap rap rap up
Watch them flee
Hip-Hop hits
And you do it like this



It's going down
The rhythm projects 'round the next sound
Reflects the complex hybrid dialect now
Detects the mesh of many elements compressed down
The melting pot of a super-futureesque style
The combination of vocal caress
With lungs the gasp for breath
From emotional stress
With special effects
And a distorted collage
Carefully lodged between beats of rhythmic barrage
It's going down
The logical progression on the timeline
The seperation narrowed down to a fine line
To blur the edges so they blend together properly
Take you on an audible odyssey
Now it's going down
A logical progression on the timeline
The seperation narrowed down to a fine line
To blur the edges so they blend together properly
Take you on an audible odyssey
Now it's going down



Put put...put it up
I said it goes like this
And you do it like this
It's going down
Put put...put it up
I said it goes goes like this
And you do it like this
It's going down



Once again it is
Composed sentences
All together venomous
The four elements of natural force
Projected daily through the sound of the source
Everybody on board as we blend
The sword with the pen
The mightiest the weapons
Swinging right from the chin
To elevate of mental states
Long gone with the wind
To defend men from shoddy imitation pretends
It's going down
Stalence emulation readily
Trekking through the weaponry
Of the pure pedigree
Cleverly seeing through whatever is ahead of me
Whatever the weather be
We invent the steadily
It's going down sub-terrestrial high
I rhyme regiment that's calling the shots
Exectution of colloborative plots
Ready to bring the seperation of style to a stop

A logical progression on the timeline
The seperation narrowed down to a fine line
To blur the edges so they blend together properly
Take you on an audible odyssey
Now it's going down



Put put...put it up
I said it goes like this
And you do it like this
It's going down
Put put...put it up
I said it goes like this
And you do it like this
It's going down


X-men 'bout to blast off world wide
Yo it's a request only
X-men 'bout to blast off world wide
It's built from scratch
Album in stores soon
'Bout to blast off world wide
And you do it like this
Just like this


Put put...put it up
I said it goes like this
And you do it like this
It's going down
Put put...put it up
I said it goes like this
And you do it like this
It's going down


Like this
Like this
Like this
Like this
Like this

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                        Step Up

Watch as the room rocks
Mentally moonwalk
Mixed media slang
Banging in your boom box verbal violence
Lyrical stylist
In a time when rock hip hop rhymes are childish
You can?t tempt me with rhymes that are empty
Rapping to a beat doesn?t make you an emcee
With your lack of skill and facility
You?re killing me
And a DJ in the group just for credibility
I heard that some of you are getting help with your rhymes
You?re not an emcee if someone else writes your lines
And rapping over rock doesn?t make you a pioneer
Cause rock and hip hop have collaborated for years
But now they?re getting randomly mixed and matched up
All after a fast buck and all the tracks suck
So how does it stack up? None of it?s real
You want to be an emcee you?ve got to study the skill

Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you every time like this?
Step, step up, step, step up

So you pick up a pen and write yourself a new identity
But mentally you don?t have the hip hop energy
With a tendency to make up stories
Sounding like the only hip hop you?ve heard is top 40
And your record company is completely missing it
All the kids are dissing it for not being legitimate
So in a battle you can't hack it
React with whack shit
And get smacked with verbal back flips
Get your ass kicked by fabulous battle catalysts
It's taken decades for emcees to establish this
You?re new to hip hop and welcome if your serious
But not on the mic
Leave that to the experienced

(Using the waves of sound the true master paralyzes his opponents, leaving him
vulnerable to attack)



(After years of pain staking research by the world's leading sound scientists, we
here at the sound institute have invented a reliable audio weapons system. Actual
movement of musical sound in space used to carefully attack and neutralize the
cellular structure of the human body, and the question must be asked.)

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                         Sometimes

Sometimes, things just seem to fall apart
When you least expect them to
Sometimes you want to pack up and leave behind
All of them and all their smiles

I don't know what to think anymore
Maybe things will get better
Maybe things will look brighter
Maybe

Sometimes, people surprise you
And people surprise me
But I guess that's the price we pay
For wanting so badly

I don't know what to think anymore
Maybe things will get better
Maybe things will look brighter
Maybe(X3)

Sometimes(till the End)

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                        Part Of Me

Part of me won?t go away
Everyday reminded how much I hate it
Weighted against the consequences
Can?t live without it so it?s senseless
Wanna cut it out of my soul
And just live with a gaping hole
Take control of my life
And wash out all the burnt taste
I made the problems in the first place
Hang my head low ?cause it?s part of me
Ya hardly see right next to the heart of me
Heard of me the routine scar
New cuts cover where the old ones are
And now I?m sick of this
I can?t stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade away on my sanity
I rather not even be then the man that?s staring in the mirror through me

Pre chorus
Cut myself free willingly
Sstop just what?s killing me

I feel it everyday
I feel I made my way
I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside
Swallowing me

It can?t be frightening if you?ve never felt it
Once it?s been dealt with you feel like you?ve been touched by something angelic
And then melted down into a pool of peace
Cease to be the animal you used to be
Remove the broken parts you know were wrong
And feel the karma when the problem?s all gone
And then you start to see another piece of yourself that you can?t let be
And that reason?ll last fight to free yourself
Take it to the depths of the bottom of the well
And now you know you can choose to lose the part in your heart
Where your insides bruise
You can live if you?re willing to
Put a stop to just what?s killing you





(Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won?t go away, part of me won?t go away
Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there?s always something wrong with me)


I feel it swell up inside, swell up inside, swallowing me

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                       Morning After

Caught up against the war again
Time to chill in the bar again
Never seize to amaze in minds
So I just sleep sleep sleep please don't
Wake me till the morning after

Cut my peace (?) by the flower again
Lick my wounds like a dove again
Is that a light at the end of the tunnel
That I see I see please let it be but don't
Wake me till the morning after

Oh I'm so tired there has got to be an end
to the pain I feel when I'm
awake and alive alive alive
alive and not dreamin'

Caught up against the war again
Time to chill in the bar again
Is that a light at the end of the tunnel
That I see I see please let it be but don't
Wake me till the morning after

Oh I'm so tired there has got to be an end
to the pain I feel when I'm
Awake and alive alive alive
Alive and not dreamin'

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                     Dedicated

I have a dream of a scene between the green hills
Clouds pull away and the sunlight's revealed
People don't talk about keeping it real
It's understood that they actually will
And intoxicated and stimulated emcees
Staring in the trees, paranoid, are gone in the breeze
Watch them flee, hip-hop hits
Take a walk with me and what you'll see
Is a land where the sand is made up of crushed up wax
And the sky beyond you is krylon glue
And everybody speaks in a dialect of rhyme
And emcees have left materialism behind them
Meanwhile I just grip my mic
And hope me and my team make it through alright
Because say what you will, and say what you might
But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night


Because this is dedicated to the kids
Dedicated to wherever music lives
Dedicated to those tired of the same ol' same
And dedicated to the people advancin' the game
What's real is the kids who know that something's wrong
What's real is the kids who think they don't belong
What's real is the kids who have nowhere to run
Who are hiding in the shadows waiting for the sun

I've seen a lot of shit, I've talked to a bum
Out on sunset strip, he asked me "How would you feel
If everybody acted like you didn't exist
You'd lose your grip, probably eventually flip."
So let it be known, the only reason that we do this
Is so you can pick it up and just bang your head to it
While emcees fight to see who can be the commonest
Be floatin overhead like a space odyssey monolith
Over seeing the game, over being part of the same ol' thing
It's all gonna change in a hurricane of darkness and pain
And acidic rain and promises that you won't do it again
Meanwhile I just grip my mic
And hope me and my team make it through alright
Because say what you will, and say what you might
But don't ignore who it's for at the end of the night



Pulling me close, the shadow is warm inside
This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide
Pulling me close, the shadow is warm inside
This is where I feel at home, this is my place to hide



This is dedicated to the kids
Dedicated to wherever music lives
Dedicated to those tired of the same ol' same
And dedicated to the people advancin' the game
What's real, everybody who doesn't feel safe
What's real, everybody who knows they're out of place
What's real, anybody with nowhere to run
Who hides in the shadows waiting for the sun

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                       Carousel

she can't hide no matter how hard she tries
her secret disguised behind the lies
and at night she crys away her pride
with eyes shut tight staring at her inside
all her friends know why she can't sleep at night
all her family asking is she alright
all she wants to do is get rid of this hell
well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself
she can only fool herself for so long
are you too weak to face me?
(she can only fool herself)


i never know just why you run so far away far away from me

when it comes to how to live his life and can't be told
says he got everything under control
thinks he knows he's not a problem he's stuck with
but in reality it would be a problem to just quit
an addict and he can't hold the reigns
the pain is worse cause his friends have it the same
trys to slow down the problem he's got
but can't get off the carousel untill he makes it stop
he can only fool himself for so long
are you too weak to face me?
(he can only fool himself)



Try to fly with the wings I gave you,
Try to do what you believe and I'll save you

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                      And One

Where should I start
Disjointed heart
I?ve got no commitment
To my own flesh and blood
Left all alone
Far from my home
No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I

Keep it locked up inside

Cannot express
To the point I?ve regressed
If anger?s a gift, then I guess I?ve been blessed, I

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies

It?s too late to love me now
You helped me to show me
It?s too late to love me now
You don?t take a word in

Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies

Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Break)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace (Me)
Breaking a part of my heart to find release (Too)
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace
Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Keep my distance
Keep my distance



Spit drips from the jaw of the witless witness
Cryptic colloquialism shifts your midrift
Dark all I do embark the shadows
Involved with my thought catalog, analogue, rap catalog
Keep my distance, and fear resistance, hurt by persistance
The twisted web of tangled lies
Strangles my hope to waste and numbs the taste
And I'm forced to face these hate crimes
Against the state of being
Feeling the weight-less-ness pressed between the ceiling
Reeling around room
Riding a bubble of sound proof
It's the frequency making you
Sha-Shake with every boom
Involuntary muscle contraction
Ignoring and drinking musical gas field euphoria
The sound pounds to make the dead flush
To have you a head rush with red thoughts and said stuff

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                       Lying For You

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can?t forg